Saturday, January 1, 2011

Words and Thoughts are Powerful Things

At this the beginning of a brand new year, a year I had hoped would be the beginning of the end of my breast cancer (oh how naive you are, Grasshopper) ordeal, I've decided I need to start each new day with a mantra -- a positive one. 

Thoughts are very real and powerful energies that flow and ebb through space like ocean tides, so why not make them good ones?   Have you ever been hit head on by a person oozing with negative energy?  Bet you could spot the source instantly; the air just gets so thick and heavy.  That's happened to me more times than I care to recall and the experience usually leaves me depressed and tired.  Like George Harrison strongly warns in one of his songs in his album All Things Must Pass, Beware of Darkness

When you're around a positive person, the air and energy around them is light and easy to breath.  Well, I want to be THAT positive person.  And I want to surround myself with a positive light and air that is easy to breath.  And I want YOU to be that positive person right along with me, especially when you see that I might be listing a little, about to fall into a quagmire of negativity. I absolutely do not want to be that dark, negative person.

Today I've decided that the first words I say every day need to be carefully weighed.  I will have many chances during a normal day to say those "first words."  So what will my first words be when I roll out of bed in the morning?  What will my first words be to my very supportive husband and best friend?  What will my first words be to my friends?  Even strangers? I'm not putting my feet on the floor until I practice saying them out loud to my cat Sir Winston first.  He will give me a fat-faced snotty look if the word doesn't suit, take my word. 

So my worry right now is that chemotherapy is going to get the best of me, take my energy away and turn my energy black (Beware of Darkness).  So what's the most positive thought I can say in the morning before I set my feet on the floor?  Gosh, I think I  heard the perfect mantra being sung on the radio just now.  Talk about fate.  

I went to the doctor, I went to the mountains
I looked to the children, I drank from the fountain
There's more than one answer to these questions 
Pointing me in a crooked line
The less I seek my source for some definitive,
The closer I am to fine...  Indigo Girls

And every day I am closer to fine.  I should:  Beware of Darkness.  Seek answers.   Smile.  Say thank you.  Feel free to add to my New Years (2011) list.  I'd appreciate it, in fact. 


  1. I simply CANNOT wait to get you the book, 'Eat, Pray, Love'. It goes along these very same lines that you mention here about possitive thoughts and surrounding yourself with possitive people. I love you, Mom! Another thing to add to the mantra: I am worth every bit of this. But I really, really like the one you chose. It sounds perfect, actually.

  2. AWWW! Thanks Jayme. I will look so forward to reading that book. Can't wait. You are a positive light, for sure. :)